If you're tired of your manifestations not working...
"I'm tired of faking my reality doing manifestation techniques feels like a duty."
First of all, if these resemble your feelings please stop "forcing" or doing any manifestation technique. Just stop!
Manifestation, is the art of switching states of being and bringing forth a different reality through the subconscious beliefs, "the truths" with which we live our lives. You are always manifesting, because manifestation is a state of being. You are just most of the time, not consciously manifesting your desired reality or outcomes.
So when you say that you are "tired of doing a technique" or that it "feels fake" you are really just not in alignment or simply put, not living in the desired state or as they say "living from the end".
You see, your desired outcome, or that change in reality you are trying to "reach", is a state in your consciousness. It is not a physical state. It is not something you need to see, it is something you need to feel and be.
Reality is first and forever more an illusion from our minds. So in order for you to see the results you want in your 3D world, you will need to be very clear about what it is that matters more to you. Do you want the world to reflect a certain reality to you? Then you need to change your identity, beliefs, and state of being in order for your reality to reflect exactly that new state. By trying to "force" a new reality you are just reinforcing your current reality.
If your 3D reality matters more to you than your inner state, your 3D reality will always be the one winning. True change comes, when you put in the work. And by work I don't mean doing manifestation techniques all the time. Putting in the work is changing self, questioning your beliefs and creating new ones, challenging your mind every time it's on autopilot. Living from a state within, living from this moment, the "NOW", moving forward.