Your stability should be your number one priority. I don't care how desperate you are to get that person or that thing. You will always get a match to who you're being. The more you are desperate and in lack the more you will manifest more of the same. That's why your stability should be your number one priority.
When you are unstable and in the midst of unfavorable circumstances, the only thing you latch onto is some sense of security by trying to quickly fix the situation at hand so you feel better, but that does not solve the problem. It only provides instant relief. When you're stable you're able to call in and create what you want much more easily.
Coming from an unstable state you will always flip flop and not be able to create what you do want. You will keep on fighting your current 3D reality trying to reframe it with all your might and manifest the opposite. This, in most cases, doesn't lead to any substantial results because you keep trying to change the current reality by fighting against it.
The more you fight something the more you recreate it. Period. This in turn, causes you to lose your belief in the law and give up as well. With time, you will find that instead of looking for quick fixes and fighting the shadow and maybe managing to get a little movement doesn't really get you anywhere.
You need to be solid in your approach and manifest a consistent outcome for yourself that feels normal and natural. Something that is consistent and permanent. For this, your own state of being, AKA stability, needs to be your priority.